I don't feel like typing the rest of the things that happened in my retreat right now, because I'm sick, but I'll type one last thing about what happened in my second day at Caliraya.

Ptr. Nathan Leigh taught us about self-image, and how self-esteem can kill us spiritually. I found out from his session that all of this time, especially during the previous school year, I have been controlled by what others thought, especially of those of my classmates who've made me feel very inferior. Now, I'm dealing with it because I've found out that only what God thinks of me matters most. Let me quote this quote before it disappears in the today's quote portion of my blog:

“Cure yourself of the condition of bothering about how you look to other people. Be concerned only . . . with the idea God has of you.”

—Miguel de Unamuno

And how I wish I had gone to the Jzone website before I went to camp. Quoting from the corner stone, it says, "To not do something out of fear of failure... is worse than failure itself." I wish I stepped out of my comfort zone and tried to talk a bit more to those who talked to me during the camp. Bitin kasi 'yung mga pinagsasasabi ko, e.